I am not perfect. Guess what? Neither are you my friend. Woaaaah, Heather, woah! Why are you even saying that? Well, because it is the truth y’all! NONE of us are perfect. Even the ones we may admire the most are not perfect although it may seem like it from far away.
When it comes to life…sometimes it just doesn’t work out the way you planned and the definition of perfect becomes a word that is irrelevant because you’re honestly just trying to make it by. That’s O-K! Even when it doesn’t feel ok, I promise it will be ok (personally coffee makes anything ok for me).
For me, after YEARS of finding my heart longing to run my business completely full time, I FINALLY made the leap earlier this year at the end of July. Running a business full time is scary. I felt like I was in constant stress and anxiety not being able to do the things I so badly wanted to do for my business. I prayed, I prayed, and I prayed that the Lord would open the doors that needed to be open and close the ones that needed to be closed. It’s been a little over three months that I have been running this little thing I get to call my business FULL TIME.
(Florals by: Amanda Day Rose)
Where I went wrong
In that three months and even up until now, I have literally been in an even more constant state of trying to figure out how to balance everything and doing that during B-U-S-Y season while always being on the road. My close friends and family have heard me say this a million times, but I LITERALLY do not know how I even had time to run my business when I was working a part time job. There are so many moving and intricate parts it still blows my mind.
I didn’t take certain things into consideration because I was just SO excited to finally be running my business full time. You guys…I really thought I knew exactly what I would need to do to make everything run smooth like a well-oiled machine, but oh boy was I *WRONG* (read that in a Donald Trump voice LOL).
So, why am I writing this?
Well, it’s more or less a confession of not being perfect. I like to think I have a pretty great head on my shoulders and I am relatively organized, but I have fear. A fear of letting down others around me including my clients, friends, and family. THANKFULLY I have clients, friends, and family that understand that running a business full time is all new to me and that I am a human being (sorry Hope for having to cancel lunch on you today – love you girl).
As I am sitting here writing this, I know I have a lot to catch up on, including some AMAZING weddings that you will be on the blog over the next couple of weeks!!! EEE!!! But I want the other people who feel similar to myself or feel worse or even paralyzed in fear to know that if you’re just HONEST with yourself…you’ll feel so much better immediately. You are NOT alone and you will never be alone in this season of life.
For myself, I know I have a lot of things to work out on the back end of my business and have made some SUPER big decisions to get there! So, you guys be looking out for those things next year!
Have a GREAT day everyone :)!
P.S. If you feel similar or have ever felt similar… I encourage you to leave a comment of your own on this post to show those reading that they really, really are not alone.